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So talented.

A wonderful message..

In this world of social media the drop of a letter on a door mat normally means a bill or yet more junk mail.  Today though I was welcomed with a handwritten envelope.  I knew it was from mum.  Inside was a handwritten card which said -

!The accident served to show how strong you are; a unique quality and strength, fundamental to you.  You are a whole person, mind, body & spirit!"

I wanted to share.

Adversity

How come some people seem to be able to drift through life with no or few problems or heartaches?  or do they but do not share their experience.  On the surface are they like swans but paddling furiously underneath?

And what makes you a stronger person?  Is it having to face adversity a postive life experience?  How different would we be -

• those who had "sailed through life" having to live a life with peaks and troughs of misfortune and difficulty
• and those who had lead a tapestry filled life of tales of woe to be one of lifes fortunates?

Dies it work like that?  I do wallow and say woe is me as my life as not panned out as I envisaged it.  each time I try to put it back on track it dets derailed.  But I keep trying.  If I hadn't faced adversity could I cope with the knock downs?

I don't know but take comfort in the following quote posted on Pinteresdt bydeepscythe.com



 

Update

It's been a couple of weeks since I last wrote - it's amazing how cathartic the act of writing is.  This blog is very open which is why I have to take a break of a few days or weeks to internalise feelings before sharing.

My burn is healing well - just a few "naughty" bits that are defiant to the burn creams and treatments.  The dressing is much less bulky now which is a blessing in the current high temperatures.  Though i have been an absolute grump as it's been so uncomfortable and smelt an aroma.  The nurses advise me the one of the dressing they use does have a distinct smell.

I have PTSD as I'm not able to think about the accident.  I've only just been able to look at a fire on the TV but with trepidation.  Treatment starts in earnest this week.

 

Compartmilasation

The wonderful nurses who change my dressings three times a week tell me my burn is getting better. Following the physiotherapist exercisess my movement is so good they don't need to see me again.

However, the psychologist tells me there is more work to do.

Last week I was on a high - I'm OK, I;, dealing with this, any memories or flashbacks I bat away, I get smell memory so cover my nose. My way of dealing with it - but apparently not good - these aversion tactics are symptoms of PTSD (post traumatic stress syndrome).

I've also been very good at compartmentalising a situation (for example being raped) into a box- it's happened, put it away.

Numerous compartmentalising led to my breakdown a few years ago so I am trying my best not to do so with my burn injury,. It is so hard to do.

The Eastender episode tonight was building up to a fire moment - I had my ears, eyes & nose covered for the majority of the episode.

The hospital are helping me through this and I am thankful that they consider the feelings of individuals and the circumstance as opposed to taking a one size fits all attitude.