...that is how I feel today. I think I'm entitled to a small amount of self pity. The question that keeps going round in my head is "why is me", "when will the bad stuff stop"?
Two weeks after my burn I am trying to be positive - yesterday I had my first ever facial, manicure & pedicure. I also had my hair cut. I went to my usual hairdressers - The Hairdressers http://www.thehairdressersnottingham.co.uk/. They were extremely wonderful and I had the most relaxing time.
Today I feel very down and teary.
Then again - is it because it's a Sunday? Sunday's have always been the day I have felt most alone and down. As a child I would take myself off pretending to meet non existent friends but would wander the streets on my own perhaps venturing into a park to view from a safe distance families having fun together or friends playing. When shops started to open on a Sunday I would wander around these just to be around people.
Sundays heighten my sense of loss and my feelings of worthlessness.
I keep looking at my pretty painted fingers and toes (vain & superficial I know) to brighten me up. This morning I had a clean and tidy around the house.
To help me a heal a positive attitude is paramount but I must also acknowledge and accept what has happened. Extremely difficult.
Two weeks after my burn I am trying to be positive - yesterday I had my first ever facial, manicure & pedicure. I also had my hair cut. I went to my usual hairdressers - The Hairdressers http://www.thehairdressersnottingham.co.uk/. They were extremely wonderful and I had the most relaxing time.
Today I feel very down and teary.
Then again - is it because it's a Sunday? Sunday's have always been the day I have felt most alone and down. As a child I would take myself off pretending to meet non existent friends but would wander the streets on my own perhaps venturing into a park to view from a safe distance families having fun together or friends playing. When shops started to open on a Sunday I would wander around these just to be around people.
Sundays heighten my sense of loss and my feelings of worthlessness.
I keep looking at my pretty painted fingers and toes (vain & superficial I know) to brighten me up. This morning I had a clean and tidy around the house.
To help me a heal a positive attitude is paramount but I must also acknowledge and accept what has happened. Extremely difficult.
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