Looking sad

My routine is to request the next months medication at two days to go - it gives enough time to collect the prescription and the medication. For me it works – I know I’ve taken tablets each day and whilst I have a lot of tablets I can cope with the amount prescribed each month.

This month a repeat prescribed was denied without a review with the doctor – it meant four days without medication – I was in turmoil – especially without Zopiclone , I could not sleep.  And yes I know, it’s a sleeping tablet and there are articles about addiction to sleeping enhancements. 

After a number of ‘phone calls and a complaint email I was given an appointment.  My aim from the meeting was to reduce my medication.  A series of questions later I’m told that with the amount of medication I’m on I should be “swinging from the trees”.  I’m afar doing that.  A suggestion of changing medication was made – it makes me nervous so have agreed to see my doctor again in four weeks time.

He chastised me for always re-ordering my prescription rather than asking for an appointment  as the last time he saw me was eight months ago..  He told me I looked very sad - the asddes thes seen me.  In the past I've been distressed, 

For someone who just gets on with it and of there are the tools to do so – that’s what I will do.  I don’t ask for help until I really need it.  And then I find people don’t want to help.. So what is the point.

Before my severe depression was considered I used over the counter sleeping aids for many years – the effect which diluted.

Through the medication I know I have more coping mechanisms but my weight has increased so much.  There have been a couple of sessions where I have tried to go cold turkey but is has been very hard.  Recently I’ve self reduced medication.

I hate relying on medication to make a day in the life bearable.

 

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